I think I'm turning Japanese

new year

2011-01-05T12:31:00.005+01:00

A new year has begun. Time for more studies and new adventures.
My first adventure this year was to spend New Years eve at Hiro's families house to spend a real Japanese お正月 (osyougatsu). We had a family dinner on the 31th and just before midnight we had お屠蘇 (otoso) to cleanse ourselves for the new year. After midnight me and Hiro went for 初詣 (hatsumoude).
On the first we had お節料理 (osechiriyouri) and had a really relaxing day!

My second adventure for the year is that I will move during this month, wish me luck!

M

mental growth

2010-11-25T15:24:00.002+01:00

Soooo, long time no see. As usual I might say.
It is actually amazing to thing back and realise how fast time passes.
It is now a little bit over a year since I stopped drinking alcohol I realised when I had my birthday the other day. I could think back on the last year and realise that I haven't been drinking much at all the last year and I am really proud of myself. *patting my own head*

As it now happens I have a new problem in front of me that also means mental growth for me. I know it will go well because I know myself and I know that this has to happen in order for me to be truly happy. When I think back of my time here in Japan I am so grateful that I got the chance to make this trip. It has made me stronger and if I had never met all the people I have met here, seen all the things that I've seen or been let into the Japanese culture like I have I would never have been able to make these changes. Thank you Japan, thanks to all of my friends here in Japan and everyone who has gone back or gone to a new place in life! You are all a part of this new My.
What I need now is to continue to cultivate the plants and seeds that I have in my mental garden and the future will be brighter than ever the past was.

The best is yet to come, smile big, live with passion.

So from a slightly spiritual My to all of you,
Happy Thanksgiving!
M

finally (piercings)

2010-06-17T11:25:00.003+02:00

Sooooo, last week, Friday, I FINALLY (about a exactly year later) changed my tongue-piercing from the first one that you use when the tong is swollen. My tongue had been swollen unusually long and I was worrying about it a lot. During autumn I stopped drinking alcohol completely to let it heal but I thought it was still swollen. For the last six months-ish I've been wondering if I should take it out or not cuz it was hurting a little bit now and again. Then a month ago I went with my friend Kyoko to get her a tongue-piercing too. Back at the same studio a year later I ask my piercer what I should do about my swollen tongue. I get the answer;
"It's not swollen, you should change the piercing"
So why it was hurting was because it was too long and because of that moving around.... Do you think I felt silly?
(HAHAHAHAHAHA! This is what happens when you postpone things and worry for nothing..)

While we are on the subject of piercing I come to think of my new work. That's right! I'm now a part-timer at a French restaurant about 5 minutes from my home. Yay me!
Why I came to think of this is that I have to take of my nose-piercing and all of the rings except one. Compared to the general public I'm a quiet pierced person. Some of the girls in my class haven't even pierced their ears cuz it's scary...? But if I compare to my piercer I'm a beginner, and if he compares to the people he met at the piercing-tattoo-convent he went to in US recently HE is nothing. There are so many different people in the world.. <3

Last Thursday I was a model for my 先輩 at their fashion-show (senpai, a word for people that are a year above you in school or has been working longer at the same work, you can also use if as a "senpai in life"). It's the second time that I'm on the runway now and I've done a couple of hair-modelling-gigs too. Next Monday I will be in a fashion/make-up photo shoot. It's a lot, a lot of fun and I hope to get more and more gigs from now on too.

Wells, I'll get back to my Starbucks-coffee and studies.
M

a year

2010-06-08T04:04:00.001+02:00

Two days ago it was a year ago that Sweden had it's National Day, so naturally there was one this year too. More importantly for me it marked a huuuge change in my life. That day it was a year ago that I met Hiro the first time. So so so much has changed in this year and it's for the better.
When I think back of who I was and where I was in life this time last year I'm so happy for everything that has changed. <3

In school we have finished our first skirt and my skirt is now the one of the first ones on sale in Obra, the store our school has. We are at the moment making a blouse and I'm really excited about how it's going to turn out!
At the same time we have finished the designs for the dresses we are going to make after the blouses and that we will use in our fashion show the 7/31. By intion from me we are now making the fashion show a lot bigger than planned by the teachers. (we were supposed to have it in the lounge of the school and only for people in the school) Now things are looking really good and I'm freakishly psyked about how the result will be.

Now breakfast!
M

how?

2010-05-15T19:36:00.002+02:00

How do people do it? How do they keep in touch with people regularly? How do you know which ones are worth hanging on to? How do you see which relations are the important ones, the ones that will change your life and stay for ever? And how do you see when it's time to give someone up?

Since I came to Japan I've gone through a massive life changer. I'm starting to realise how important people are to me. Things that I didn't know about before (read: things I didn't think about before). How do I show them all appreciation? How can I show that I have changed and that I care now? I don't know what is expected from me and it makes me scared. What makes me even more scared is all the relations I realised that I, ME, MY, just trough in the bin because I was, just that, SCARED! Scared of people seeing me, would they like me? Am I good enough?
My subconscious has been a people-repellant. And now I have to start all over again.

But even though it's hard like hell and I'm ashamed and just wanna crawl back in again sometimes it's all worth it. Every time that I get that positive response back from something positive that I do. Maybe just a smile.

Yeah, I've wasted time and threw away good people in the bin BUT. I'm 20 and I'm changing.

Forgive me my sins, dears friends and family
M

karaoke

2010-05-03T04:59:00.002+02:00

Tomorrow might be better but I'm gonna take my chance to boast about the weather today anyway; today 26 degrees, tomorrow 29! You can really feel that the summer is coming!

Even though it's getting really hot here I introduced Glögg (in English; mulled wine, a drink drunk a lot in Sweden during Christmas) to my friends at the moving-in-party. It seems the lovely drink that warms every Swedes heart at Christmas takes some getting used too.

Speaking of other things that are Swedish in Japan; me and Hiro went to karaoke yesterday and we found such splendid Swedish classics as E-TYPE! Haha! <3 I laughed a lot and I've just shown Angels Crying for Hiro. As a reaction I got but a frown. We also found The Hives, Mando Diao, Eskobar and Europe! I bet there is a lot more lovely titbits in there.

Once again to the breaches, oh, I meant the sun!
M

sunny in kyoto

2010-05-02T04:47:00.002+02:00

It's been sunny for three days in a row now, WOHO!
Yesterday I met some of my friends from KICL at En-chan and Enya's moving in party (the girls are living together in an AWESOME 一戸建て - a real house with your own entrance and garden an the whole thing). It was really nice to hang out and go down to Sanjo by bike together later at night.

The other day I met Enya on my way back from lunch with Saki-chan and Maykol. At the same time some other people from KICL and some of my present classmates also walked by. It felt so incredibly weird, it was like being in-between two worlds. The old one with all of the friends and faces I've known for a year, studied with and laughed with (cuz really, there were never anything to cry about). And then the world that is mine now with my Japanese classmates that I will know for another two years. It was so clearly separated (mostly just separated with Shirakawa-dori which is nothing, a street in the North-East part of Kyoto. I see my old school every day from my new one) before and then and there the world's mixed and I was caught in-between.

Now for some more SUN!
M

ZzZZzzz

2010-04-26T15:04:00.002+02:00

Right now I'm really sleepy. I'm going to bed but not until I've studied some Buissnes manner.
School is really fun and it keeps me busy and occupied, but no too occupied. We have started a lot with drawing and preparing for the world outside school (could seem a little bit early but it's not, it's actually really good).
I'm getting more and more excited about Fashion and I'm also feeling more and more that I might just end up here in Fashion for a long time.

My Dad was here in Japan visiting me for not to long ago. It was so awesome. Dad and Gudrun get along very well with Hiro wich makes me so happy. We had so much fun and it was really sad to see them go. Well, I'll see them in a couple of months again!

That's it for now; study, study, study!
M

unexpected

2010-03-30T07:39:00.003+02:00

Yesterday it snowed. In the end of march. In Japan. I don't think that many people actually expected that. And as they say in Japan, "When it snows at a time that no one expected it to, anything can happen". And it sure did, I had one of my weirdest experienses during all of my time here in Japan yesterday.

I was on time for meeting up with Hiro and Ayu but they were not so I decided to just pop in a bookstore with recycled books close by to look for more of Tove Janssons books about Mumin that I'm reading in Japanese right now. I ask a woman behind a big stack of books if they had any and she said no. Thereafter followed the usual conversation you get with Japanese people; oh, your Japanese is so good, how long have you been here? Oh, only one year, that's amazing. Where are you from? Oh, Sweden, I'd really like to go. By this time the only costumer, a short man in a blue suit with slightly curly hair who looked like he read a lot of books, in the store joined in the conversation. He asked a little about Sweden and then he started asking about these books that I was looking for and asked me if I knew where to find them. I answered yes, yes, that wont be a problem, you can find them anywhere at Tsutaya or Book off.

The man then told me to come with him to the nearest Book off and that he would buy them for me because he was rich. (I think that was meant as a joke) I insisted that it wasn't necessary but he insisted back. From now things all happened so fast that I didn't have time to think or really react. He went in a high speed along Sanjo and across the bridge to Sanjo Keihan, I tried to make a comment about how beautiful Kamogawa is when the cherry-blossoms are blooming, he barley answered but asked about Sweden instead. At Book off we found two books which he paid for and then also insisted on giving me the change (which was about 150 kr), I think I blushed like a clown and stuttered 優しい (kind) in lack of anything better to say (I still don't know what is appropriate in this kind of situation..). Well, that's how Japanese guys are, you have a Japanese boyfriend so you should know, is what he answered. I tried to offer him some あげ玉 (used for cooking) that I had just got from a restaurant. He declined and told me to give it to Hiro. Then he rushed of in the same high speed saying something about having to meet someone himself, waving but not looking back.

This is one of the stories I have of kind, kind, kind Japanese who do you favours and never ask anything back. And here I am, one year later, and I still don't even know what to say in return.
<3

Now; preparing for Maycol's welcome back party that also happens to be the first party at Hiro's and my place since I moved in!
M

welcome back

2010-03-21T16:10:00.002+01:00

Came back recently after my and Hiro's trip to Yanagawa, his hometown to see his family, dog and just have a little break from city life.
I love Yanagawa, it suits me very well, it reminds me of visiting Dad's summerhouse in Resmo, Öland (Sweden hehe). The city (located in the Japanese countryside) let's me relax like I can't do in Kyoto. Just like Resmo let's me get away from everything in Stockholm. Thank lord for the countryside!
Hiro's family is so wonderful. It is so so so so nice to have a family away from home. It makes it easier to be away from my beloved family at home. And also in a way it makes me miss them more because in a way I realise what I miss. For example like I said earlier we went to a Japanese onsen with his family. We went there by car and when riding in the car I realised I missed something so simple and normal as going somewhere in a car with your family.
Recently I have started to miss Sweden more and more. I miss the beautiful, beautiful nature and the soul, The Swedish Soul, what it means to be Swedish and living in Sweden. The colours of Swedish summer with ice cream, strawberries, sun, the white flowers and the green fields. Faluröfärg med vita knutar och torvtak.
Japan is wonderful, I love so much about it that it has really become my second home but despite of the title of this blog, "I think I'm turning Japanese", Japan is really just my second home, my home away from home, I will never be Japanese fully. I love Sweden. There, I said it! I LOVE SWEDEN!

SWEDEN, I FUCKING LOVE YOU, YOU ARE MY HOME!

One of the things I love about Sweden is that we generally count people as Swedish if they are born in Sweden or lived in Sweden for a while and speak the Swedish language. Here in Japan you will have to fight and fight with blood sweat and tears to at all stay IN the country and as long as you don't have at least one Japanese parent (you are considered Japanese even if you were born abroad with Japanese parents) you will won't be recognised as a Japanese. I feel it has to do with the face. I'm white therefore obviously not Japanese. They are not used to foreigners yet since the country has been closed for foreigner for so long. In Sweden we have so many people from different cultures and countries and they are all Swedish.
I'm also starting to understand why foreigners in Sweden are fighting to be able to perform their own cultural traditions when in the country. Why do I say that? Because my new school will go on until the 26th of December this year. 26th?! What about my CHRISTMAS?! It's insane. Even if I don't consider myself Christian and never have, Christmas means so much to me. It's not about Jesus, it's about being together with my family and showing love and appreciation on this day every year.
(Dear readers, don't fret, I will solve this problem, I am going to fight for my right to be with my family for Christmas, hurray!)

Do not mistake this entry as just a homage to Sweden and a denial of what is actually becoming Japanese inside of me (because there are those parts too, I'm making the perfect person out of myself here with a little bit of Sweden and a little bit of Japan). This is merely thoughts and ramblings from a foreigner with half her heart somewhere where she is not.

So now I will end this rambling and go listen to Kulturnytt från SR.
Good night to you all, with love,
M

春休み, Springbreak, Vårlov

2010-03-11T00:51:00.002+01:00

Dear readers, my last tests are finished and since last Saturday I have 春休み, spring break. Even so, I can't relax like you would like to. I even realised the other day when I tried to relax like it was a holiday and do nothing at all really that I can't. I know of all the things I have to do even though it's spring break and I felt reallt bad for not doing it because the things I have to do actually keep me as busy as if it was still school. There is a lot to do but it's all progressing, if not smoothly then at least progressing so I feel ok anyway. Wish me luck everyone!

In less than a month my dear dear Dad and Gudrun comes to visit me! I'm so so happy, and so is Hiro. We are planning what we are gonna do together, where we are gonna go, what they have to try to eat and so on.
Next on the schedule though is to go to Fukuoka to see Hiro's parents and go with them to a onsen, which will be my first time (shame on me for waiting this long with something so crucial to Japanese culture). Fy, fy!

Wells, wells, now to breakfast!
M

it all starts with a lullaby

2010-03-01T12:56:00.002+01:00

Soooo. Now I'm in the second day of four of the last tests in school. It feels good and bad. It's been a year and it's all gone so quickly, I don't want it to end just jet. This time, here in this school and in Kyoto has been sooo good and I've met so much lovely people and excperienced so much here. I'm just so happy that I wont have to leave Kyoto at least. These next two years here in Kyoto will be just as awesome, I know it. What I don't know is what people I will meet. I'm looking forward to it!

I'll just continue with what I was doing,
over and out.
M

the return of scent

2010-02-24T14:47:00.002+01:00

The last two days have been wonderful weather. Going from was never really winter (for someone from Sweden) here in Japan, it has now become the equivalent of late spring. Today we had our first lunch outside in the basking sun and I had to take of several layers of clothes because it was to hot. It's still cold during evening and so on but still. WTF?! It's not even march!

With the heat comes the flowers and the bees and also, the smells! It's so wonderful, it feels like waking up from a long cold were you couldn't smell anything. GO GO SMELL!

Over and out (back to studys for the laaaaast tests in this school and also sending a e-mail to CSN about my new school... wohoo...?)
M

many turns

2010-02-16T06:46:00.002+01:00

Good afternoon!
After many turns and ups and downs and if's and so forth I decided that I will live with Hiro. The Loveshack will therefore no longer have the same amount of awesomeness but there was no choice.
At the moment me and Hiro are moving around things and organizing to fit two people and all of our things. Friday we will have guests. Hiro's parents, his sister and niece are coming to Kyoto. We are looking forward to it a great deal.

This weekend our friend Toshi propsed to our friend Annika. It was reeeeally beautiful and she said yes. So she'll be staying here in Japan and get married to the man of her dreams!

Over and out for now!
M

long time, no do

2009-11-16T14:10:00.002+01:00

The last Saturday I did something that I haven't done in ages. I woke up, and then I read. For 5 hours, straight. It was wonderful, and what was more wonderful, the book! "Vindens skugga" is what it's called in Swedish and fully one of the best books I've ever read. I can strongly recommend this book with a vivid language and a very captivating plot. After I finished it I've been longing to start a new book, which I bought today (can't wait until I can go to bed and read!).

Yesterday before I went to sleep I found out the most wonderful thing. One of my absolute favourite bands, a band that I've been saying is the band I want to see the most right now is coming where, yes, JAPAN! And I have a ticket and I'm freakishly psyched!
When I found out yesterday I fully started to cry happy tears and giggle not unlike a maniac. Hiro who I was talking to on Skype started getting a little bit nervous since I couldn't answer him as to why I was crying like that. Also Ayu was wondering "why I was making those sounds".
I've already started to think what to wear and how it will feel when I'm on my way to Osaka. Oh my, all most makes me cry happy tears again.

Now it's only three days until I'm in the air on my way to London, wohooo! Time flies by!

Sleep tight!
M

the countdown

2009-11-12T22:54:00.002+01:00

In a week now I will arrive in London soon and there at the airport my lovely, lovely Hiro is going to be waiting for me. I'm getting more and more psyched for every day that goes by. I can't wait.

In addition to the other things I have to make a decision in right now, I also have to make a big decision. A couple of months ago I had a tounge piercing done at Kansais best piercer, at the awesome Scamp here in Kyoto. I wasn't able to keep from doing all of the things I was supppsed to at the time like not drinking alcohol and generally leeding a normal healty life. It is still swollen so I started getting worried (a number of friends said I should just take it out but I'm in love with it and would not like to part with it if not neccessary). This friday a friend of mine, Robert convinced me to go and check it with the piercer (which I had tried to avoid in case he would say I have to take it out) after I told him I wasn't drinking alcohol from now on because of the piercing . Said and done I went back and didn't get the answer I was expecting. He told me to continue to not drink alcohol, sleep well, do mouthwash and not to touch it.
The twist is that next sunday is my birthday, 20th birthday. A sober 20th birthday? Really? I don't know. There is a great conflict in me, one part of me says "why not sober?!" the other one says "you only turn 20 once, you're young, come on". The former is for the moment stronger. I'll tell you later who wins.

Ciao bella!
M

basking in the sun

2009-11-07T07:00:00.002+01:00

I just came in from my balcony where I've been sitting for about an hour reading a book and blowing soap bubbles. I wish to remind you that this is the 7/11 a time where in Sweden it might be snowing but the frost has most certainly arrived. In Japan on the other hand I could just now a few minutes ago sit in shorts and without a shirt. I got a tan. A TAN! IN NOVEMBER! Bliss for Japan!

Mraow!
M

getting the hang of it

2009-11-06T16:01:00.002+01:00

This week has been full of studying, studying and some other stuff that needed to be done. Now Friday is here and I'm freakishly tired. It's all good though as Ayu would have said. I am finally after all this time getting the hang of living on my own and studying at the same time. Which means I'm just a tad bit late but better late than never, ey?!
It's an incredible feeling to be able to be proud of yourself and what you achive. Not something that I've been used to be able to do for a long period of time. So I'll just have to continue wont I?

Me n Ayu just made an early night of Friday to go home to watch a movie and sleep in tomorrow, get some sleep back and be fresh and ready for more studys and our friend Harrys birthday party! With that I'm off to "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas".

Catch you later!
M

pride

2009-11-01T23:22:00.002+01:00

This last sunday I was mighty proud of myself. I managed to do A LOT. A lot I tell you. I even did all my economy stuff on time (I have, for the first time, found a way of keeping track of my economy in a way that I could handle for a longer period than a month, YAY ME! I'm doing fucking good I tell you guys!). I fixed doors, made the Loveshack more efficient. I did some homework. I made food (enough to bring for lunch for me and Ayu for the next day to!). And so on and so on. Do you think I slept well?

Yesterday me and Ayu started talking about our future plans in a more serious way. We realised that there is only 4 months left of our studies at KICL and after that we need to have a job. I NEED a job in a more accute way than Ayu since she has a Japanese passport so she can stay here for as long as she wishes without trouble. I on the other hand need the work to be able to get a working visa and stay here at all without beeing kicked out of the country. So we started looking for work yesterday and we'll see what it gives!

Whish me luck e'ryone!
M

bliss

2009-10-30T09:33:00.002+01:00

I'm very happy right now. Veeery happy. We now have internet in our apartment! After a month and a couple of days of daily trips to Hiros place for a couple of hours. (Also after a 50 minutes long phoneconversation between Ayu, my roommate, and our internet people, thank you Ayuu!) It feels soo good to be sitting in your own bed writing in your blog. Everybody, never underestemate the power of internet!
Now I'm going to my friend Meka's live at Urban Guild here in Kyoto so I'll catch you laters everyone!

Bliss blissyblissbliss!
M

once more around the wheel

2009-10-20T10:44:00.002+02:00

Today I thought I was supossed to start an extra class, so was not the case. I instead enbarked on a little adventure. I took the Eizan railway (very small train that goes to the outskirts of northern Kyoto on rail). I've been living next to it and going by it by bike basically every morning for quite some time now (i.e. since I came to Japan) but never actually gone anywhere with it. I decided to go to a place called Ninose by a choise that was sprung completely from the heart. All the stations before that made me wonder if maybe the Eizan railway was nothing for me. But just between the station before Ninose began a forest and it was magical. Eizan is not for me, Ninose is. It was the most sereene beauty I've seen so far in Japan. It was small but oh so lush. A river ran through it all and there was mountains on both sides. Every where there was greenery. And bamboo my great love, and waterfalls, oh waterfalls! I walked along the road leading to the next station and looking more like a forigener than I have in quite some while. I think they all knew eachothers names and I did not fit in at all with my sunglasses, stockings and two big bags. It was a very obvious break in the beauty between the different stations, neither of them could be measured with Ninose.
<3

Catch you on the flipside
M

newbie

2009-08-05T05:41:00.002+02:00

This weekend I'm going to my first Jap music festival and it feels like I've never been to a festival in my entire life. I have no clue how much of my Swedish festival experience I can actually use. I know that I won't be able to schmack up a tent and crawl into conveniently placed on a camp close to the stage. Is there gonna be mud? Will I be able to se a single artist without queing for decent spots for ages? Will I faint when I see Saosin? Feels so weird not to be on top of things especially since I'm going alone the first two days. ADVENTURE TIME! I'm psyked as usuall. Haha.

Gogo ME!
M

cockroach

2009-08-02T22:29:00.002+02:00

So I've had my first cockroach in my house. I am not surprised cuz it's really just disgusting there nowadays when I go back. So far I've been back three nights the last three weeks and had to spend most of the time cleaning up the place. Yeah, Hiro's place is like heaven comparing to my appartment. Basically no chance of getting roaches here oh no siree. Looking forward to when I move together with mah mate Ayu next month! It'll be heaps of fun I'm sure!

Roach on everybody!
M

family reunion

2009-07-27T05:37:00.002+02:00

So now mum and Max has been here to visit me and gone home. It was awesome and I already miss them. It was really good get to show the family where I live and what I do here in Japan, meet some of my friends and the boyfriend. It is so much easier to show than it is to tell so to speak.
Now we have summer holidays and it's good times. We have gotten quite some homework but it'll be alright.
I have to make quite a lot of decisions in the near future and it's a bit scary but that'll be alright to. I trust myself more now since coming to Japan. And that feels good mates.
My English is getting horrible so I apologize for that in advance and hope to be doing better in the near future.
Wells, now I'm off to a busy day with a lot of things to arrange seeing that boyfriend leaves for London the first of august and we have been the two laziest pricks lately. Off I go!

M

who am I, where did I come from

2009-06-08T19:10:00.002+02:00

I'm now going to do something not very Japanese nor Swedish;
I am going to drink Earl Grey and watch a British movie cuz I realized when I watched Poirot earlier today and they were driving through the British countryside that I also miss Britain and my friends and family there.

So, so long yet again fair maids and jolly fellows!
M

Sweden day and a awesome weekend!

2009-06-08T09:54:00.006+02:00

During last week I realised that it would be the Swedish national day last Saturday. So being the true patriot I am (nah, mostly because I'm me :D), I decided to make it in to a party.
Fortunately for me I had received all the necessary equipment from the awesome couple Ante n Johanna (Bror n Kägis!) for a Christmas present so I was already set. So when I woke up Saturday slightly tired from the "pre-party" at my place Friday all I had to do was to put on my Swedish football shirt and hang a variety of blue and yellow ribbons round my neck, send out the invites, serpentine and flags at hand and head out.
Me, Robert and Rasmus went to Michie's school festival and ended up in a road trip in a car with Sou and some of his friends.

We had crepes and purikura (<3 purikura), some of us had raw egg, and heaps of fun in the kids corner. It felt like back in the day when me and my friends just drifted around and did whatever we felt like doing without a care in the world. <3
Of course we ended up at Kamogawa, it was after all Saturday and we had a big day to celebrate. We drew Swedish flags on a wide variety of people, renamed some of them with Swedish names and I handed out my flags and taught people to use a serpentine.
We got to watch some students from Kyoto University's Temple Visiting Club (haha) being drunk in the river. I have noticed that this seems to be very common and not at all that bad here in Kyoto. The Japs don't have the same sense of shame when they are drunk. When drunk do the most embarrassing thing and it's all good. They are awesome!

Also honored my new country a little bit by seeing Jap-Uzbekistan at Hub (NIIIPPPPPOOOON NIIIIIPPPOOOON), got in and out of some fights and last but not least ended up at Kanso <3. style="text-align: center;">

And yeah, forgot to tell you guys. I have pierced my tongue. Think I'm falling in love with myself a tad bit after i did it. I look awesome in it! Go go ME!
Had a little bit of a trouble with sounding like a retard for a while but since it's been more than a week now I'm almost back to awesome.

Happy Sweden day a go go!
M

the money, of course, is of no importance but i find your challenge irresistible

2009-05-31T06:06:00.002+02:00

Oi gov'naas!
Today I saw my first live water filled rice patch! Yay! It's just outside my front window and kind of amazing. Makes me think of old Japanese movies.

I've also noticed that my English is getting worse. All my languages are mixed up. It's a jungle but it's all good. Japanese is progressing and that's what I'm here for so I'm happy!

I spend waaay to much time down at Sanjo. Or no I don't, for me it's awesome! But I'm almost never home. I love Sanjo. And I love Starbucks and Kamogawa and everything else that is close by! So I almost never use the internet so I have to say I'm sorry for not keeping in touch so much!

Last week we had a few days of because of the swine flu. But it's all bullshit I think cuz almost no one is infected in Kyoto. The biggest school wasn't even closed and that is the biggest risk of spreadding. Haven't heard anything about it for a few days either. For now it has blown over here in Kyoto. Because we had days of last week we have to come to school on Saturdays instead. BLÄ! But at least they are not taking it from our summer vacation so I'm satisfyed anyway.

Two weeks ago I bought a plant and guess what everybody? It's still alive! Yay! I'm quite impressed by myself since I usually kill everything green in my care.

Wells! I'm off to more kanji studys and some Skypeing!

Ya neee!
M

wallah!

2009-05-21T17:23:00.002+02:00

Hey everyone!
Now I've been absent from the blog for a while for many reasons, mainly because I'm lazy when it comes to the blog.
I've had a great time since last I saw you. Still loving Kyoto from the bottom of my heart.
It's starting to get really hot now. Not really hot but the moist is coming. Little bit closer every day. It's scary (I think I say this in every blog entry but it has to be said) cus it's only month 5 and number 8 is the hottest. I don't ever wear anything warmer than a "kavaj". And when you're riding your bike home from Sanjo like I did tonight I didn't even have to wear my thin thin parka.

Tonight I met the first person I strongly disliked from the beginning and did not want to talk to. (yeah well exept for that weird guy Rob from last weekend that I just don't like eiter but in a totally different way and almost forgivable seeing that he was shitfaced.) This guy was sober and from the States and was sitting next to me while I was studying at Starbucks just now. He started to talk to me like most gaijin do with each other if they sit close long enough. He commented on me studying kanjis and I it's to complicated and to late to explain why but he instantly made me feel uneasy.
So when Sou (my friend) jumped me from behind and strangled me in a friendly way while I was leaving Starbucks I was almost shitting my pants. Wää! Just feels weird cus most people who I speak to here I instantly like or at least could have a decent conversation with but this guy...

Anyway, おやすみなさい！
M

it's on the tip of my tounge it's on the back of my lounge

2009-05-08T08:21:00.002+02:00

It was a long long time ago that I was this happy thanks to one person. And in a not constructed way, just purely and simply happy.
I smile all the time and I can't really stop.
But no more of this right now. We'll have to see what happens.
but GAAAAH!

that's that, I've seen it all.

2009-04-30T04:31:00.002+02:00

I've had the single most weird night here in Japan so far.
It started (OK, no it didn't but we'll leave that part out) with me going to meet Serjio after finishing my studies.
While I was waiting for Serjio at Sanjo I started talking to a guy and his friends drops by. Then along comes Serjio. While we are standing there talking to the Japanese three other Japanese walk by and one of them points at me and says; I MEET YOU IN THE FLOGGING MOLLY CONCERT.
I mean just that is weird, that he remembered me and recognized me on the street in the dark in a different city two weeks later. Apparently he was the guy who stage dived just before me at the concert.
BUT this is the weirdest part. He speaks Norwegian.
He is apparently interested in Scandinavian politics (?!) so he studied in Norway for 4 years. So I spoke Swedish with him and he understood. He spoke Norwegian back and I understood. It ended up with us speaking three different languages together and. Yeah. I just couldn't stop laughing. I never thought I would see the day. とってもへん！

And, and, and!!!!!! (I hate using many ! but this requires it). Mr.Hi-I-like-Scandinavian-politics-for-no-apparent-reason and the rest of us went to a bar. After a while we come to the subject music (only a matter of time) and Saosin comes up. So he tells me that they are playing here this summer. HERE, or well, Tokyo or Osaka, but I mean HEEY!!! SAOSIN! And so we speak a little more about that they are coming and he shows me the line-up for the festival. FUCKINGEXTRASUPERAWESOMELYNICE! I mean some of my absolute fucking favorites are coming to the same fucking festival while I'm in Japan and I'm fucking going!
Linkin Park, Matisyahu, Nine Inch Nails, Kasabian, My Chemical Romance, The Specials, Placebo, Keane, Mando Diao, Mew, SAOSIN! Fuck it's gonna be awesome!
It's expensive but belieeeve me, I'm going. As I said to him right after I asked how much it was; It doesn't really matter. Again I couldn't stop smiling. It was physically impossible.

This Japan-trip is getting more and more awesome on the music front. I could tell you more about ME+JAPAN+MUSIC=TRUE. But now I want to study.

I'm awesomely much in it for the lulz.
M

(by the way, I'm sorry for all the swearwords and ! and capital letters but I can't help it, I'm just THAT exited)

うそつき

2009-04-25T10:14:00.002+02:00

Ok, so I lied. New info didn't come soon. But now it's time. Sugoi desu ne?
I got my packages from mum so now I rock school every day with new nice outfits. I'm awesome.
And speaking of clothes we did laundry for the first time two days ago. It took some time but when we all put our wise heads together we made it. It only took all the four of us and different skills from all of us. (Me and Karin have a wash machine on the balcony but since I'm environmentally involved I invited Robert and Serjio to share the laundry.) So we made it and I now have clean underwear again.

And I bought my new phone! It's like my old one with a keyboard but smaller and I get all information in Japanese. Guess how that's going?!
To email (yep, the phenomenon with sms is not very big in Japan) my phone you use lillefot.my-chan@softbank.ne.jp
And haha, I got last months bill for my Swedish phone that I've been using here until I got the Japanese one. 1145 Swedish kronor. Luls.

This week we found out the schedule for our tests. So almost ever week we have a "little" kanji-test. That is 48 kanji every week. YAAAAY. not. Then we will have a "big" one wich is 550 kanji. Also YAY. not.
So this weekend I will study some more than I usually do because we also have a test of all the chapters we've had so far in the textbook. I've bought a electronic dictionary wich is totally awesome. Makes it so much easier to study. Anotherthing that's sugoi is that Serjio showed me how to write in kana on my computer. So from here on there might pop up some Japanese words in kana in the blog. Look forward to it guys.

Some people are coming over for a "förfest"/"preparty" at my place in a hour and a half and then we are going to "study" some Japanese pronounciation at the bar. So now. Hardcore studytime.

We're only in it for the lulz.
M

Ga suki desu!

2009-04-16T13:04:00.002+02:00

Oh man. I love this country in so many ways. Probably one of the best ones are getting emails from Japanese. AH, AMAZING. You can totally understand what they are saying but the formulations has got to come from some badly working Google-translator. I love it!

Starting to get some friends and more and more events planned. The trip to Osaka and Flogging Molly was also awesomeness multiplied buy awesomeness. And that's a story you'll definitely hear sometime when I get back.
Not either surprised that the most obnoxious guy I've met so far is a Swedish rock artist. Met him at Rock Rock when I was in Osaka. If I could just remember which band he plays in. So help me, which Swedish rock bands do you know? Gimmiegimmiegimmie!

More updates soon e'ryone!

M

fucking hell.

2009-04-11T05:36:00.002+02:00

Yet again SI manage to amaze me. As I told all of you I was going to study both Japanese and Art & Design. Well, obviously not. The last few days I found out from Robert (another Swede traveling via SI) that you DO have to have some knowledge of the language which I was told not was necessary. He also told me that Linda (the previous coach) had told him this when he tried to apply to the course. I was given no such notice. I'm starting to go numb to all the shit they pull.
What kind of ******* ********** work at SI?
Well. Email sent to ******* Josefine (the new coach since Linda is on maternity leave) at SI and let's see what she can come up with this time. Better be fucking good.

Hum. Ja (Japanese for well), over to more pleasant things. Yesterday I had my first class and got to meet every one. Oh and right; I ended up in the Basic C (Shokyuu C in Japanese) which is the most basic of all basicness there is. Suits me perfect!
We have three different teachers and we're in school from 9-12.30 every day. We will recive homework (shyukudai) every day and should also be prepared for the next lesson, reading the next chapter and checking words we don't know and so forth. So I have my first real homework. Even though we don't really start until Monday. ^^ Lulz.
Next Friday we'll start with kanji, the Chinese writing system that is also used in Japanese, jikes, spare no expenses!

Weather is continuously fucking beautiful and generally Swedish hot summer like. Eian! (Kansai ((a dialect of Kyoto and other areas in Japan)) for Sugoi which all of you know what that is by now!) But I would rather it stayed this way the rest of the summer cuz it's getting hotter and hotter all of the time. This is perfect although I can't really use my balcony for longer periods than fifteen minutes during the day. Looking forward to the skirts mum is sending me and will be arriving next week. Evenings though, FUCKING AWESOME! Beautiful sunsets every night and perfect temperature. This Wednesday I went to a temple during the evening and oh, perfect time to go!
Starting to become suntanned as well suckers! Oh joy!

And I lost my favorite eraser yesterday at school. Hopefully it'll be back. I'll get back to you with more details later on.

Live life for the lulz,
M

the crow is black even if it's been abroad

2009-04-07T04:15:00.002+02:00

Gatljusen blinkar gult och gatorna står tomma
Fötterna värker och knäna skriker;
jag har gått för länge igen.
Men lyckan är där någonstans;
bubblar, sjuder, viskar för att sen gå i falsett,
de där gångerna. Du vet.
Det är inte kärlek, det är inte fysisk njutning. Det är just det;
lycka.

No title, 5/4-09

M

the life of a cruiser

2009-04-06T13:56:00.002+02:00

Ah, the sweet life. Nothing can stop me anymore. I am invincible. I can go anywhere. This is how I felt on the way home tonight.
You guessed it, I just bought a jitensha. And not just any bike, it's Kon. That's what I named him and he's awesome. We are going to do wicked stuff together. Ah, life is good.

I'm guessing that none of you really understand why I feel this invincibility just buying a bike. But try having to walk for at least 30 minutes wherever you want to go if you want to do something other than going to school for 12 days. I had to travel a long way (1,5 by walk) to get to the jitensha-ya (bike-shop) that I had been told by one of my locals was good but totally worth it! 8500 yen for my awesome Kon and that's including registration and loads of awesomeness! I will probably hate myself every time I want to go up a slope (you'll see when I upload the pictures) but, hey, what is life for? Awesomeness or going up slopes? Probably both but i prefer to see it from a awesome point of view. Cuz I'm just that awesome.
All I wanna do is do it Pocahontas-style and attach some portable speakers and blast my way through Kyoto. Ah, miss you Poca..
Hum.. so now the awesome-count is up to seven so I'll stop talking 'bout Kon and how awesome (8) he is.

On my way home I saw some cherry-trees in full bloom, they get a special feeling about them at night. It's so serenely beautiful that I don't really know what to do. It's like listening to Håkan Hellström. You fall in love every time with anyone. And the smell, oh. The world is worth saving solely because of cherry-blossoms.
I wish all of you could see them as I do now, but my pictures will have to do(also coming later).

Also I had my first "special-needs-child"-lesson (it's only what I call them). It's for the ones that knew not as much as the other little children at the placement-test yesterday. I will have another one tomorrow and they are sugoi. I like being back at the school bench. Oh, and I got a "special-needs-child"-book as well to study hiragana/katakana in, also sugoi.

What more? Hum. I got picked up (flirted with) at the grocery-shop today by someone working there (I think we have a kind of date Saturday?) and I found a new friend in the guy who sold me the bike (funny story, we had almost all of our conversation over a Japanese version of Google translate. "Please make friends" was what he wrote to me when I had paid and was about to leave, aw). And tomorrow some of the Swedes at the school and all who wants to come aer going to have a more classic hanami at the canal close to Imadegawa-dori!

Enjoy life!
Yours truly,
M

hasty desicions

2009-04-04T07:19:00.003+02:00

I've gotten a lot of worried reply's to my last entry so I want to calm all of you by saying that it's not that bad. My first reaction was a tad bit to strong. It's not the ideal situation and I will continue searching for an apartment of my own but not as hurriedly. And if I find something very cheap and suitable I'll go for it. But for now I'm good with this.

Last night I was out clubbing for the first time, minimal was the music and it was awesome though it was nothing at all like what it would have been in Sweden. No one knew how to dance properly to the music (whoever is to say what proper is). And EVERYONE had clothes on. Well, have to admit that minimal is not what I usually party to but at least girls usually go with not that much clothes on to these events. I also missed the guy who always puts incense in the speakers. But I got to dance to some quality music and was totally and utterly happy 'bout it.

I also met some locals that actually were Japanese this time. They will show me some sights and good sushi-places as well soon.
Earlier yesterday I met another local who is taking me to a sakura(cherry-blossom)-viewing-event at a shop tomorrow after I have had my placement-test at 9 pm.

I don't really know what to expect from the placement-test so I don't think about it but I will study more hiragana/katakana today. I'm feeling well about staying in today cus it's raining and I walked for about 7 hours yesterday.

I'm fit and I know it!

Ja ne,
M

roomie

2009-04-02T15:48:00.002+02:00

Today my roommate arrived and I finally ended my ambivalence about whether it was going to be "daijobu" (fine, OK) or not. It won't. So tomorrow apartment-hunting begins. I got the offer to stay in another room in the dormitory but this one is my home now, and if I can't live in this on my own then I'm pretty confident that I can find a cheeper option on the market based on the conversations I had with some local gaijin (foreigners) yesterday at McLoughlin's.
We have to see if the school thinks it's fine to break the contract or not and if I can have the money back. Something that should speak for me is that I told them in advance that I was not happy with my current situation. Well well, we'll see.

Sleep thight party people!

M

YATTA!

2009-04-01T07:12:00.002+02:00

What other title is there? None.
I'm here, I'm well and superhappy! This will be a short first one because I've soon used up all the time that I give myself at the computer each day (1 h + 1 episode of series/movie). Achtung achtung!

What I would like to get of my chest is a bit of gratitude before anything else is said.
Thanks to everyone that came to my goodbye party and made it a superawesomest night. <3
Many thanks to Morgan, Josefine and Paulina; without you I wouldn't have made the packing in this orderly fashion. And especially you Morgan, you were a fucking rock! Love you for the last days in Sweden and Japan 2009 is going to rock as well!
Also many thanks to Isabelle who without really knowing it has been a great support these first days and the days to come. You have been a safe harbour to rest my thoughts in when the sea has been stormy elsewhere.
Thanks to Bror Max for the last few days and all the rest, you'll be the one I miss the most with your jokes, silent presence and unspoken love.
Also heaps and tons of everlasting love and deepest gratitude to my parents, Susanna, Dan, Phelix and Gudrun for without whom this trip would not be possible at all. Your undying support means a LOT to me and I love each and every one of you very, very much even though I'm not that good at expressing it always.

Now it's getting not that short and very sentimental over here and before I cry my eyes out (fucking tear canals) I will stop. Know that I mean all that I've said and so much more as well. And to those not mentioned by name, it's not cus I don't love you too.

<3
M

ingen himmel räcker till

2009-03-18T10:56:00.002+01:00

Jag stod och valde kläder och kände att våren och de kläder jag valde krävde Peggy Lejonhjärta.
Så jag satte volymen på max i vardagsrummet (förlåt grannar), öppnade balkongdörren och dansade mig galen.
Som alltid när jag lyssnar på Peggy vill jag springa snabbt och utan hinder till änglasyster och berätta hur vacker hon är och alltid kommer vara för mig.
Nu sprang jag inte, men jag vill att du ska veta i alla fall.

Mysse alltid<3 Bysse

punch in the face

2009-03-16T19:13:00.003+01:00

Nu har jag just fått det besked jag naivt hoppades att jag inte skulle få.
På grund av den svaga kronan kommer jag att behöva betala 12 000 sek mer i skolavgift. Med tanke på att ekonomin bara höll ihop för den som lever SNÅLT innan ligger jag nu i dyn så att säga.
Imorgon blir det till att ringa till CSN och be snällt och fint att få låna lite mer cashis... Urr.

Mer uppdateringar senare.

M

debatt

2009-02-28T16:53:00.004+01:00

Det här är ett svar på Pocahontas inlägg om fildeling.

Teknikens utveckling är oundvikbar, så vad händer när hemmabio systemen utvecklas och blir mer tillgängliga för "proletärerna", HD till exempel. Det jag snarare skulle vilja säga som anledningen till att man fortfarande går på bio är en känsla även om tekniken som för tillfället är tillgänglig på biograferna också väger in.

Det hela faller och står på att det fortfarande finns de som betalar för musik, spel och filmer. Vi fildelare lever på dem kind of, det är bara en del av befolkningen som betalar för hela. För att ta det till det extrema; INGEN betalar för musik, spel eller filmer. Vad händer då? Visst tjänas det pengar på mer än försäljningen men hur påverkar det musikerna. Sen är det också så att om folk fortsätter betala samma priser för musik, spel och filmer kommer ingenting att förändras. Fildelning är ett sätt att protestera mot just att det är fruktansvärt höga priser för något så naturligt mänskligt behov som musik ändå är. Det Radiohead gjorde är sjukt bra, mer sånt.

Sen håller jag helt med om att de "stora" kan gå och gömma sig i en mörk och fuktig källare så giriga som de är. Men det finns de "små" som även de förlorar på nedladdning. Jag själv i egenskap av fotograf förstår tänket med att inte få någonting för sina verk trots att de används. Här är jag ambivalent som få. Jag kan inte tänka mig en värld utan nedladdning men hur ser världen då ut om man inte har respekt för individens rätt till det man själv har skapat.
Det är lätt att göra det till en kamp mot multirika som SONY och Britney Spears medan det är en annan sak när man tar in de fotografer och musiker som försöker försörja sig på till exempel sin musik och lever knapert och i stor konkurens dagligen med osäkerheten om huruvida de har råd till nästa månads hyra och mat. Jag håller även med helt om att nedladdning främjar de "små"s spridning och att man i led kan tjäna på det.
Kampen mot de "stora" ser jag som rättfärdigad i och med att jag anser att deras förmögenhet är större än vad någon människa har behov till. Man skall icke leva över sina behov, det är när man gör det som man tar av någon annans behov, en utjämning i världen är av nöden. Frågan är; ska våra kamrater och medkämpar i den kampen råka illa ut på vägen, de som bara försöker sträva efter att uppnå sina behov. Det är här jag är ambivalent. Kampen måste föras men det är extremt viktigt att det inte blir en allmän kamp utan att man ser detaljerna och individerna i marginalerna också. Hur kan kampen föras utan att man på samma gång fråntar de "smås" rätt till överlevnad?
Ytterligare en sak som gör mig ambivalent är att jag generellt anser att man inte kan få allt, att vissa kanske måste stryka med för "the greater good" vilket kan kännas sjukt "nazi-like" men jag menar att för att bekämpa de "stora" och i del även kapitalismen så kan inte alla komma ut som vinnare. Det är en fysisk omöjlighet om man inte ser på det långsiktiga perspektivet som är en bättre värld.
Och det är något jag ser det som, kampen handlar inte bara om fildelning, så mycket, mycket mer, utan även vad det är för värld vi vill ha. I allt man tar ställning till tar man ställning till vad för värld man vill leva i.

I den bästa av världar skulle människorna jobba gratis och inte sträva efter pengar som det högsta goda utan till exempel byta tjänster med varandra. Vi är en jävla bit därifrån för tillfället vilket gör att man måste ha en inkomst. Så musiker and the rest måste få cash. Du får utveckla hur du menar med att det är deras yrke. Ja, det är det, är det därför okej att ladda ner deras verk gratis? Även om de får pengar för annat också så är försäljning fortfarande en del av deras inkomst om jag inte är helt ute och cyklar?

M

ursäkta mig, jag ska bara gräva fram min spark, ursäkta, kommer snart

2009-02-23T08:59:00.003+01:00

2009-02-20T15:58:00.003+01:00

"Det är inte bolaget det är fel på, det är systeemet."

Sagt av Yonatan G, my man, men han vill poängtera att han inte längre står för sitt citat då han idag fyller byxmyndig tänkte jag skriva, men det är något lite mer signifikant än det, eller kanske inte. Jag menar, nu kommer vi ju till en djupt filosofisk fråga, är alkohol eller sex viktigast? Jag vill ha ett svar på detta antingen i kommentarerna eller via sms Yonte!

Nåya, grattis på 20-årsdagen Mr. Trance!

Ja, jag vet, jag hade kunnat ta något som såg bra ut, men det hade inte varit lika kul då, eller hur?

Fortsätt leva väl!
M

nörd

2009-02-20T13:26:00.002+01:00

Sitter precis och lyssnar på Vetenskaps radion i P3 medan jag chillar lite med hiragana. Där berättar dom att det finns nya rön som säger att det inte bara är människor som har en känsla för vad som är rätt och fel. Även svansapor kan ha denna känsla. De kan till exempel neka mat om de känner att någon annan blir negligerad mat samtidigt.
Men är det inte detta som filosofiskt har skilljt oss från djuren, vår känsla av rätt och fel? Hum.. mycket spännande. Nu skulle man haft Spiridoula (filosofiläraren på gymnasiet) i närheten att diskutera med. Ack ack.

nature nostalgia [lillefotgoesNorrbotten]

2009-02-20T12:27:00.005+01:00

När jag satt på tåget upp till Norrbotten nu i måndags morse och såg solen gå upp över ett helt snötäckt landskap insåg jag till fullo att jag aldrig kommer lämna Sveriges sköna vidder för alltid. Det finns inte på världskartan så att säga. Så ni som kommer sakna mig när jag är i Soluppgångens land, frukta inte!

Nu har jag nästan aklimatiserat mig till det nordligare klimatet (har i alla fall nailat dialekten ganska jävla bra om jag får säga det själv) där vi har temperaturer mellan -27 och som bäst -9. Helt slutkörd är man, som om jag gjort hur mycket som helst under dagarna när jag in fact gör så sjuuukt mycket mindre. Pratade med modern om det igår, hon sa att jag verkade "ha det busy" som hon uttrycker sig för att vara i Norrbotten. Men om man jämför med en vanlig dag för mig är det här ingenting, jag upprepar INGENTING. Som jag flänger hemma alltså.. ^^
Det känns som att dagarna har färre timmar här uppe. Man måste som inte göra någonting alls för att mormor och Moster Gerd (AHA! tänker ni, Mys mamma har inga systrar! Och så är det men; mormors syster Gerd --> Moster Gerd) ska säga, "Jo nämen, gå du och vila", "Nej nej, inte måste du handla idag, det är ju så kallt, gå du och vila". Och jag sover och sover och ändå är jag trött. Luften är för bra. *lulz*
Att inte klämma in mer än vad som egentligen är fysiskt möjligt under dagen med vänner och jobb och annat flumm känns konstigt. Jag känner mig nästan lat. Jag undrar om det här över huvud taget skulle fungera i Stockholm, TEST TIME! Nä, jag vågar inte. Måste vänja mig vid att plugga dygnet runt och ändå hinna socializeren inför Japan!

Mormor håller på att förbereda middagen nu (!) och om ungefär en halvtimma kommer yngsta kusinen Emma förbi, kanske blir det blåbärssoppa..? *slickar om läpparna*

Och just det! I år är det hundra år sen vår familj flyttade in på Åkerivägen i Risögrund (för övrigt byn där jag residerar atm). Moster Gerd bor där fortfarande och jag tycker det är råballt. Mad props till vår familj!

Lev väl gott folk, one love
M

what will become of the world?

2009-02-18T10:44:00.003+01:00

Jag kan hålla med folkpartisten Birgitta Olsson i dagens utrikesdebatt om att det från vänstern och (detta har ju hon ingen aning om) även från min egen sida känns som politiskt korrekt att förhålla sig anti-Amerika. Det känns som ett naturligt utfall om man känner skräck för att bli styrd och manipulerad av intressen som man inte känner till eller vet något om.
Därför blir jag rädd när tidigare nämna folkpartist nämner att Amerika har räddat demokratin vid tre tillfällen, första och andra världskrigen men även under kalla kriget. När det finns indicier till att Amerika själva har skapat motsättningarna som gjort att de lagt sig i krigen.
Det är läskigt att ha en sådan stormakt någonstans överhuvud taget i världen. Skrämmande och mardrömsframkallande. Blev "räddningen för demokratin" något som Amerika själva bestämde, hur de ville ha det eller den faktiskt optimala lösningen för demokratin? Är det demokrati när en stormakt kan domdera hursom?

Jag hoppas liksom många, många andra runt om i världen att Barack Obama kommer att ge nytt förtroende för Amerika, som faktiskt skulle kunna uträtta stordåd, för just nu har jag inte mycket.

Lev väl
M

Step by step

2009-02-09T13:50:00.003+01:00

Ett stort massivt kliv till Japan är precis i minutrarna taget.. Biljetten bokad till Kinisland som Pocahontas skulle sagt..
Den 24 mars klockan 18.05 lyfter jag från Arlanda och 20.00 dagen efter landar jag i Osaka, KIX. Nästa storkliv blir att kirra hur fan jag ska ta mig från Osaka till Kyoto och sen hur fan jag ska sova när jag kommer fram till Kyoto eftersom att som jag förstår det så kan man inte "checka in" när som helst. Waay iaf..

Nu äre tagga till för kvällen alltså, och det kommer inte vara svårt för fem röda ören!

One love
M

The light

2009-02-09T03:42:00.003+01:00

Ibland kan jag önska att jag hittar kärlek som det var förr, när allt var vackeränglar, sockerdricka och känslor på ett annat sätt. Så ungt och naivt men så rent. Då dikterna dominerade. Det var Saosin och Håkan Helltsröm, Thåström.
Frågan är om jag kommer vara nöjd med kärlek där detta inte finns med i liten skala? Det här skulle jag tro är lite som folks variant av att det alltid måste finnas spänning i förhållandet. Och kanske är det därför jag inte kan släppa honom ordentligt? Skulle jag kunna vara tillsammans med någon som inte förstod det vackra i dikterna? I den melankoliska kärleken?

Kärlek borde väl vara värd väntan även om man inte skriver dikter, även om de inte alltid förstås, om man är glada i förhållandet. Om man kanske inte kan hitta den där riktiga inspirationen till att skriva dikter som jag gjorde förr. Att inspirationen kanske inte är baserat på något som faktiskt är verkligt. Min kärlek till det melankoliska kanske är nostalgi. Jag kanske vill hitta till känslan som jag hade då, när livet var underbart fast på ett annat sätt.

Ett som är säkert att jag inte är lika sårbar och mottaglig för detta längre. Jag skulle inte klara av att vara i ett förhållande som är baserat enbart på den melankoliska kärleken eller ett destruktivt förhållande. Det är helt enkelt inte jag längre. Jag är för glad, mår för bra. Det som är med melankolin i kärlek är att den behöver inte vara destruktiv. Och utan den, är det verkligen kärlek då?

M

eufori

2009-02-08T23:43:00.002+01:00

Saknar nattens rejv. Saknar känslan som musiken kan framkalla. Fast sakna är fel ord, jag längtar inte tillbaka, jag längtar fram till nästa gång, nästa dans. Jag vill dansa, dansa utan krav. Kunna blunda och känna.

I miss this nights rejv. I miss the emotions that music can bring out. But missing is the wrong word. I don't want to look back, I loo forward to the next time, the next dance. I want to dance without any demands. To be able to close my eyes and feel.

M

Go go congratulations!

2009-02-08T17:12:00.000+01:00

Grattis grattis till min homeboy Josefine som idag blir lika stor som jag, fast ändå inte!

Congrats to my homeboy Josefine that's one year older today!

baka baka liten kaka

2009-01-21T22:34:00.010+01:00

Idagendag lyckades vi med en baktävling, självklart vann jag och Hans över KevKev och Bi2theLal!

every me and every you

2009-01-21T15:13:00.002+01:00

A friend in need's a friend in deed,
my Japanese is better

Placebo ftw

Förlåt

2009-01-19T23:38:00.002+01:00

Phelix, men jag gillar snö och YAY, det snöar!

when in England do as the romans

2009-01-18T18:38:00.002+01:00

blev ett av ledorden för resan som för övrigt blev mycket angenäm på min ära. Inte allt gick åt helvete i livet när föräldrarna skiljde sig så att säga. Mycket fin bonussläkt har jag fått! Go go dom!

Dock blev jag som jag misstänkte sjukelisjuk, smittad av den Zarah men jag har tagit mig igenom två arbetsnätter nu, gambatte mig!

Inatt efter jobbet sov jag hos fadern som för tillfället lagar mat åt undertecknad och sen ska vi på bio och se Gomorra. Nu innan bion ska jag plugga på lite mer hiragana för att jag efteråt ska kunna pallra mig hem till modern och festa på sista avsnittet av Chobittsu. Hur i hela världen ska det gå för Chi och Hideki?! Hö..hö..

Imorgon blir det mycket jobb med några av världens härligaste barn och bokandet av biljett till Norrbotten för att hälsa på gamfolket och några inte lika gamla morbröder som residerar där innan man drar iväg på en såndär långkörare som Japan blir. Det är inte nådigt vad mycket jag har att se fram emot!

Simma lugnt folkisar
M

2009-01-09T09:08:00.000+01:00

jag älskar att resa, yay!
see ya!

packat och klart.

2009-01-08T17:37:00.002+01:00

Otippat nog grabbar så har den episka My just precis packat klart inför resan som hon ska företa sig om 6 och en halv timma.. Jag är kass. Något som jag fick bekräftat från diverse håll idag och speciellt på kvällen. Men de flesta kritikerna (mig inräknat), inte alla dock, har rätt om mig och det ligger på mig att bli en bättre människa, suck it up och göra nått åt saken. Så sagt och snart gjort.

Ledordet för mitt liv framöver blir onekligen zenryokuwotsukusu [tsenryukwotsukus] som betyder att jag ska göra mitt bästa! Trots min egen kasshet så är peppen hög inför resan! Go go Britannia!
(all hail Britannia)

Nu blir det lite mer kasshet i form av femte avsnittet av Chobittsu och lite Tropicana Sanguinello-juice.

Lev väl och simma lungt folkisar!

M

gammalt och förlegat.

2009-01-06T02:14:00.003+01:00

På min förra resa till det fantastiska Storbritanninen fick jag en fin bok "Japanese for busy people". Den är helt uppenbart utdaterad sen ett tag tillbaka eftersom att min vän Yoshi fnissar lite åt det ålderdomliga språket.. ^^ Satte nu har jag lagt ner att träna helt från den, tar bara lite godbitar som jag blivit tipsad om (hade dock varit kul att komma dit och snacka helt sjukt kefft och som nån av mina vänner la till så skulle det vara typiskt mig att lägga till utdaterade ord för att det är jag.. så man får väl se =D).

På fredag bär det av till den Brittanien igen, peppen är hög! Go go England lix! Kommer träffa lite vänner och familjen och så bor man fint och glatt hos cus' Leo med Zarah och lever låda.

För vidare glada nyheter avhandlas att snön har kommit till Hammarbybacken och att jag ska åka snowboard något jag trodde jag inte skulle få göra på ett jävla tag! Undertecknad skuttar lite av glädje trots bristande kvalität och rolighetsfaktor på den backe..

M

The support of governments

2008-12-14T23:53:00.004+01:00

Nu serni har jag fått det bekräftat från den kära Svenska staten att jag får låna cash från dom och även ett dock mycket ringa bidrag. Så nu kommer jag mest troligt överleva Japan! Yay!

Now it's confirmed that I will get funding and a loan from the Swedish government. So I will most likley survive Japan! Yay!

done and done

2008-12-12T15:06:00.003+01:00

Wäwäwää, tredje sena natten ikväll på mitt nya jobb. Jag trivs i och för sig otroligt bra, så det gör mig inte så mycket att det blir sent, får se hur det känns i mars att jobba natt och helg varje vecka.. Numera jobbar jag på K Karaoke, en karaokekrog som är inspirerad från Japans sätt att köra karaoke med olika rum för sällskap istället för en scen, Nordens kanske första.

Sista kompletteringen (hoppas jag) till KICL är inskickad och ansökan om studielån och bidrag är skickat till det goda CSN. Att jobba där jag gör känns som ett steg närmare Japan och en ännu lite närmare inblick i livet där, chefens mamma är japan och han själv har bott i Japan i två år så en del matnyttiga tips kommer fram.

Nu är det snart dags för sängen först Blackadder!

soundtrack of my life

2008-12-08T05:28:00.001+01:00

I think I'm turning Japanese - The Vapors

days gone bye

2008-12-08T01:31:00.006+01:00

Josefine (inte helt otippat att det var just hon) den goda samariten hjälpte mig att skaffa den här bloggen. Hon kom också med tipset om att jag borde ha ett bildspel med bilder jag tar när jag är i Japan.
Eftersom att jag är för ivrig med att vänta på det så bestämde jag mig för att lägga upp ett redan nu. Medan jag satt och kollade igenom alla mina bilder, alla gånger jag kollar igenom mina bilder egentligen, så tänker jag på flydda dagar och allt kul jag har gjort. För helt seriös har jag haft ett riktigt bra liv om man ser i retrospekt.

Det var inte bara jag som gjorde mitt liv hitintills helt sjukt bra så det jag tänkte göra med detta inlägg är att lyfta på hatten, buga och bocka, till alla som varit en del av att se till att jag älskar livet. Därav bildspelet, det är en potpuri av underbara saker, människor och minnen, många är inte med men för det inte någon stans glömda. Kommer ni ihåg?

Tack. <3

A friend of mine, Josefine, gave me some tips at my start line of this blogging thing, I should have a slide show with pictures that I take in Japan. I'm way to eager for that so I decided to do one now. Upon deciding which pictures to add I browsed through my photos and as I always do when looking of pictures of days gone bye I feel happy. I've led a great live so far and for that I am thankful.

It hasn't been me alone who has made my life what it has been til' today, so what I'm doing with this blog post is praising all those who has been a part of making me love life. Hence the slide show, it's a mash with things, people and memory's from days already gone but dearly beloved. Some are not in it but that doesn't mean that their forgotten. Do you remember?

Thank you. <3

lillefot goes Japan

2008-12-07T17:46:00.002+01:00

De flesta vet att jag ska åka till Japan nu i slutet av mars.
Vad behövs när man är långt långt borta och ingen man känner är på samma ställe? Jag valde en blogg. Så det den här bloggen kommer handla om är mitt liv och mina förberedelser inför Japan för att sedan kulminera i mitt liv i Japan.
När jag nu är sådan som jag är kommer jag självfallet även skriva handskrivna brev och vykort väl på plats.

Jag kommer bo i Kyoto, Japans gamla huvudstad, och plugga japanska varvat med Konst och Design i ett år på Kyoto Institute of Culture and Language. Vad som händer sen återstår att se. Som sagt åker jag i slutet av mars och så börjar skolan på riktigt 14 april. Go go pepp på Japan!

Länk till skolan KICL

Most people know that I'm going to Japan this late march. This blog is for all those left behind about all preparations and the actual trip.
Being who I am I will of course write handwritten letters while in Japan.

I will be living in Kyoto, the old capital of Japan, and studying Japanese and also Arts & design at Kyoto Institute of Culture and Language. As previously stated I will be leaving late march and then school starts for real the 14 of April. Go Nippon!

Link to check out the school KICL